do you hear me?
do you listen to me?
i am a wind that is blowing,
i am a sand on your shores,
i am seas surrounding your continent...

i know everything about you!
you have been close to me since the day you were born!
you are my BEAUTY!
you are my SWEETNESS!
you are my LOVE!

you are the closest,
you are the dearest,
you are the hottest!

i cry when you cry,
i laugh when you laugh,
i am by your side!

never let me go, baby!!!
never forget me!!!
i miss you as much as you do!!!
i search you the same much you do!!!

i am here when you talk!
i am there when you pray!
never missed a pray,
never missed a struggle, tear or gladness!

i love you, Kairit!
i love you so much!!!

you live deep in my heart, in the deepest spot!
you make me live!!!
you make me move!
you make me set the Sun on its way
and i run the world just for you
that you could be happy!
that you could smile, run!
that i could hear your smile!

the world is created for you!
it is made only because of you,
because of your sweet legs and hands!

i love you, Kairit!
you make me live too!
i live because of you!
i love you in every deepest meaning!

i want you to live!
i want you to go,
run,
seek for the happiness i have given to you,
seek my heart,
my love!

you are the sweetest!
you are my love!

you are the reason i am here,
you are the reason the world is made,
you are my sunshine, baby,
you are my love!

Last weeks a lot of things have happened to me... my thoughts are renewed by God, everything is changing... don´t know whether to follow these thoughts or not... have a lot of questions in my mind.
Have a lot of thoughts in my mind, who i am and what i am living for... have memories from my past when i was a kid yet and how happy i was than... all the truth is laid  upon me, i just have to pick it up... but i am afraid... to choose life and happiness. Why?
Oh, God how desperately i am fallen in love with you, you are my new LOVE... how can i live here with all the madness, how do i survive in this crap and crazy world, how do i survive??? Tell me!