Last weeks a lot of things have happened to me... my thoughts are renewed by God, everything is changing... don´t know whether to follow these thoughts or not... have a lot of questions in my mind.
Have a lot of thoughts in my mind, who i am and what i am living for... have memories from my past when i was a kid yet and how happy i was than... all the truth is laid  upon me, i just have to pick it up... but i am afraid... to choose life and happiness. Why?
Oh, God how desperately i am fallen in love with you, you are my new LOVE... how can i live here with all the madness, how do i survive in this crap and crazy world, how do i survive??? Tell me!